Things I deserve

  1. Food in my belly, a roof over my head, and a meaningful existence
  2. Praise when I’ve done something good and creative criticism when I have done something wrong
  3. Respectful and loyal behaviour
  4. Kind words
  5. Being listened to
  6. Someone who genuinely cares about what I do, who checks up on me out of curiosity, not just when they feel threatened
  7. An S/O who looks at me and sees a family all the time, not just when they’re feeling uncomfortable with my mood

Women can and may, as individuals, be as sexual as they want by their own choice.

But fucking stop profiting off of sexualizing womens’ bodies, real or not, to a point where sexual exposure is the only thing we believe women to be capable of.

And the artists are just as shitty….

2022-01-26

I so desperately want to clean. I want two weeks alone to just clean and get things in order so I can have a proper home once more.

I hate how I collect things that I don’t really need.

I am stil feeling restricted, like I can’t do what I need to do to feel good. It’s just a feeling, there’s nothing physically restricting me, but I feel crippled, like I just can’t no matter how much I want to.

My stomach is aching again, this wormy crawling feeling, like something bad is happening that I am unable to see or take care of. I hate it. I wish I didn’t have to feel like this.

I have another full body inflammation now. My spine, my ribcage, my hands, left leg, everything hurts.

I need to find a way to get rid of all the shit.

Oh my god

I am starting to see why I will never be able to agree with anyone on anything.

People are so fucking irresponsible.

2022-01-24

Is it weekend soon?

2022-01-22

Unpopular opinion: You should treat other people the way you want to be treated

I wish I could explain the importance of self-awareness to everybody, but it seems most people have a mental block for such a thing. Being aware that what you do and think and act on actually affects other people in your life doesn’t seem to be anything anybody is interested in.

I know this is news to most, but you can actually chose what to think.

Yes, I know! It’s outrageous! But it’s true! You can actively be a part of your own mind and choose which thoughts you want to feed and which thoughts you want to quench.

And if you are in a relationship and you choose to feed thoughts of people outside the relationship instead of putting in real work inside the relationship, then you don’t belong in that relationship and you should remove yourself from it. Or sooner or later, your spouse will resent you for being a dumbass, and they’ll remove themselves instead.

Good luck.

2022-01-21

It was an okay day. I had a chill day at work, I managed to flex both in the morning and evening, and I used my weekly health care hour for a walk. I had pizza and the cat came to visit. All good.

I feel punctured

Honestly, today, I wish everyone would disappear. I want to be alone, I want to have time to myself and to think and create and clean and just do shit I need to do without having to think about work or anyone making plans involving me.

I wish others had a firm day routine and did things that needs to be done during the daytime.

Imagine

Just take a few moments.

Imagine this.

What if women…

What if women in general was portrayed to have any significant characteristics beside breasts.

On Art

What is art?

According to dictionaries, the correct explanation of the word art would be
”The expression or application of human creative skill and imagination, typically in a visual form such as painting or sculpture, producing works to be appreciated primarily for their beauty or emotional power.”

Art is, in short, the work where an artist experiences something and recreates their experience in any chosen medium to bestow an equal experience upon their peers.

What about the emotional part then?

”One central feature of aesthetic experiences is their ability to arouse emotions in perceivers. It feels natural to experience joy, pleasure shivers down the spine, awe in sight of grandiose artworks, or sometimes even negative emotions of fear, anger or disgust in front of visually challenging stimuli.”

Meaning, an artist can invoke an array of feelings in their audience.

So, why do such a large group of artists picks sexual arrousal by female as their main choice?

Because it’s incredibly easy to get a reaction. Because it is one of the simplest feelings to evoke.
Quite frankly, choosing that feeling specifically points towards the artist being talentless and lazy.

And when you point it out you hear them retort ”I’m not sexualizing females, you’re sexualizing females when you say that”.

The whole rhetoric is ignorant. It implies that the artist believes the viewer to be so stupid that they can’t tell what the artist had in mind when they made the art.


In art, sexualizing a body is posing the subject in such a way that the object of attention will be the subjects exposed physique and sexuality.

A picture of a naked tribes woman cleaning vegetables in a river is not inherently sexual. Her nakedness becomes a bi-product of her lifestyle, but the center of attention will fall on the task she’s preforming.

A picture of a naked woman, laying relaxed and natural on a bed, is not inherently sexual. It is the depiction of a creature, relaxing, without a care for anything else.
The object of attention will be drawn to the angle of her limbs, the lighting, or details of her hair falling over the pillows.

However, a picture of a naked tribes woman cleaning vegetables in a river, blushing while fighting to reach around her enormous breasts that dangle like two burstingly inflated crash cussions between her arms, is inherently sexual.
The object of the attention will become the breasts the woman is trying to wrestle, and her facial expression will inform the viewer of her embarassment of being exposed to their gaze.

A picture of a woman laying naked on a bed, interacting with and exposing herself towards the viewer, as if aware she is being watched, becomes sexual.

The sexualization also lays in the portraying of the physique. Handpick any person and I assure you they doesn’t look ”perfect”.
There will be things in their physique that doesn’t fit within the standardized beauty ideals of society.
Scars, fat, lack of muscle, hairgrowth, bent joints, spots, veins, zits, wrinkles.

When repeatedly choosing to paint a standardized physique based on the societal ideals of beauty and every time choosing to expose the physique in a way that , the sexualization begins.
It is an active choice made by the artist to cherry-pick what subject is worthy of becoming ”art”.

If you have the guts to tell me that you like creating ”art” I want to see your stillebens, I want to see your autumn mountains, I want to see your farmers having a candle lit dinner in winter.

I don’t want to see your picked and chosen female subjects that will give you thousands of likes because you’re feeding off of the societal situation.

Show me your actual skill, or I will assume you don’t have one.